oh wow. the memories this opened for me. Choosing the duck to seem adult when dad took me out during his visits in college. Picking at my hash browns the next morning at the diner, because i was so hungover, partly from the wine at dinner but more so from the good old fashioned college binge drinking with an overlay of using-booze-to-stuff-your-emotions-down-deeper ... my sunglasses on the whole car ride... So many unspoken questions. I wish I could remember when I went from desperately seeking his approval to entirely faking interest in him and just waiting him out for the inheritance... feels like that would be an important moment to remember? if it was a moment, and not some kind of turning of the tide kind of intangible, immeasurable thing....
oh wow. the memories this opened for me. Choosing the duck to seem adult when dad took me out during his visits in college. Picking at my hash browns the next morning at the diner, because i was so hungover, partly from the wine at dinner but more so from the good old fashioned college binge drinking with an overlay of using-booze-to-stuff-your-emotions-down-deeper ... my sunglasses on the whole car ride... So many unspoken questions. I wish I could remember when I went from desperately seeking his approval to entirely faking interest in him and just waiting him out for the inheritance... feels like that would be an important moment to remember? if it was a moment, and not some kind of turning of the tide kind of intangible, immeasurable thing....